Thursday, July 23, 2009

I'm in Funk...y town!

Ever feel like just going on Strike? I can’t quite put my finger on it this morning, but I am crabby! I feel like every. Little. Thing. Is just getting on my nerves!!

*Disclaimer: This is not a complain about Josh blog, because he is amazing, and does MORE than his fair share in this partnership of life. This is a more of a “how can I fix this myself, so I don’t go crazy!” blog. Suggestions are welcome!

I have voices in my head :) Voices that are constantly telling me all day long what I need to do during the day to make the people’s lives in my life easier. By people, I mostly mean Josh, Malakai, and Leila. But, I feel like if I DON’T do these things, that the world around me will simply just fall apart. Does that make sense?

I wake up and immediately start making a mental list of what needs to be done before I leave for work. Is it trash day? Set out the kids’ clothes for Carrie and Sarah so they don’t have to. Are the car seats where they should be?

While I’m at work, it’s the same thing. I need to get some Laundry done. Do we have plenty of milk, toilet paper, diapers, etc. No, I should stop on my way home. But I can’t because I need to relieve the nannies, I’ll have to take the kids. But the kids eat dinner as soon as I get home. I’ll have to go afterwards. But then I risk a meltdown since we will then be pushing into Leila’s bedtime. Guess I’ll go at 11:00pm after Josh has gotten home from work and I’ve gotten a quick run in.

Schedules….another thing I obsess over! I feel like I HAVE to though, or again, everything would be a HOT MESS! It is my job, as the mother, to handle schedules. However, it does me NO good when I have no control over other people’s schedules that CONSTANTLY screw mine up. Then it is again, my job, to fix it.

I just wish that sometimes, someone’s first, initial, thought in the morning is….How can I make Karissa’s life a little bit easier today?


Best thing since I last blogged: Going to see the Phantom at the Fox! Can’t wait, I’ve never seen it before!!

Worst thing since I last blogged: Oscar isn’t feeling well. It isn’t back problems, because Josh and I can spot those symptoms from a mile away. I truly think his old age is kicking in.


The Gourleys wild ride said...

I will go shopping for you, just lmk what you need! XOXO hang in there babe!!!! YOu are a beautiful person!

Colleen said...

I wish I had some suggestions for ya! It is tough being as FABULOUS as you are because you are always trying to live up the standards you set for yourself!!! Do you ever wish you could just be the person who doesn't "care", just for a day!!!!?? Hang in there, I LOVE YOU!

Sarah McK said...

It may be Josh's first thought. It sounds like he's a fabulous hubby. The craziest thing is that I feel that way as well, and I'm just a stay at home mom! It's just so freaking hard to get things like groceries and laundry done when you're lugging around an 18 pound baby and you don't have your own washer and dryer. But you could probably cut yourself some slack. I'm sure your nannies are perfectly capable of picking outfits out of the closet for your kids. (Even if they may not be as cute as the ones you would have picked out!) :)